Loneliness.

Loneliness is the greatest battle you’ll ever have to fight.

Kahlil Gibran

“I have learned silence from the talkative, tolerance from the intolerant, and kindness from the unkind;
yet strangely, I am ungrateful to these teachers.”

Dear Lauryn.

"Lauryn said, "her heart was in Zion" - I just wish her heart was still in rhyming."

Dear Lauryn,

Your music spoke volumes. We miss you. We need you. Come back to us.

Sincerely,

a southern girl.

Food for thought.

Water doesn't have it's own definition until it becomes ice.

Amusement.

I want to go to six flags.  

Seriously, I need fun right now. 

No Bueno.

To say that I'm tired is an understatement.   Working full time and going to school full time is no joke.  I have the utmost respect for everyone that's grinding to get it.  It's no easy task.  I never understood until now the type of will power it takes to do this.  I'm reminded at the end of the day that all of this is not done in vein.  My bank account is okay, my grades are okay but I want better.  I need to see better.  Im striving for better.  At the moment i feel like i'm in overdrive.  I rarely sleep, I'm up all the time working and schooling and working on school. It's stressful.  I need to really pray more and ask God for continual strength to make it through.  I'm maintaining though.  A very good friend reminded me today that, "I can do all things through Jesus Christ who strengths me."  Yup.  Although these hours are no bueno I'm good.  I think.

Still pushing,

April Nicole.

Food for thought.

If no one ever told you who you were, who would you be?

Daily Inspiration - 04.28.10

Nothing you have done has been a waste of time.  Everything you have been through is a stepping stone to your next level.  Don't let boredom, depression, fear or procrastination steal your joy or success.  Perseverance is not a long race; it's many short races, one after another.   Patience and tenacity pays off.  It you have a goal or task that can take your life to the next level, don't give up.  If for some reason you have slacked off working towards your goal, forgive yourself and get back on track.  Put on your faith walking shoes.  Speak your word.  Don't sweat the small stuff.  Overcome procrastination.  Trust God for your guidance, strength and provision.  Visualize your outcome.  Be optimistic.  Let go of negative habits and negative people.  Pursue your purpose and passion persistently and prayerfully with patience.  The best is yet to come.

--- Jewel Diamond Taylor

The Makings of My Man.

Copied this from my notes on facebook. This is (i guess in summary) what i like in a guy. =) In no order, specifically.  It's a little continuation from my previous post, I suppose.

Sensually scented.

There’s nothing like the smell of a man. Whether it’s a great body wash, manly deodorant or a sexy cologne. I just love that. Issey Miyake, Polo Black, Dolce and Gabbana for men?

Intelligence.

Something about seeing a man engrossed in a novel does it for me. I love a guy who can incorporate slang into his vernacular as I do with my constituents. It shows a great level of cleverness, cognition and linguistic fluidity that is hard to find. An extensive vocabularly will have me awe-inspired in abundance.

Sense of humor.

Can you make me laugh uncontrollably? There’s nothing more fascinating than a guy that can keep up with me in the humor department. I’m a die-hard fan of funny, so if you can make me laugh from a hearty place – we’re good to go.

A creative brother; everything about me melts when a guy has a creative outlet. Whether it’s art, writing, music, or cooking –using that right brain will win my heart hands down. I wholeheartedly love a guy that’s into art.

A guy that can flip it from corporate to casual to street. I like to believe that i have style and if a guy can impress me with his style of dress, trust i'm all ears, eyes and whatever else is needed for attention. ;) this is a necessity. bum dudes gets no love. sorry.

A man who believes that he has the power to do anything he wants and who goes for what he wants; do you talk like that because you can back it up? A guy with integrity; don’t sell your soul for a dollar, player. A man of his word will have me sold forever.

I absolutely love a dude with an accent. Well, not just any accent – an accent that I can understand; I’ve met a few guys that made me want to run in the opposite direction because they sounded so horribly.

A man that sees more than just the physical aspect of a relationship - men who invest in building, not having a “trophy” chick on his arm. Where they do that at?

A story; a dude with an intricate story about his life intrigues me. Not some dude that resides in some sort of make shift reality.

A God-fearing man. That's self-explanatory.

this type love.

i think at 22 i still believe in a fairytale type love. i want the prince charming. i have an ideal picture of how i expect my significant other to be and perhaps that's why i haven't met him? maybe i want too much? i want good morning, mid day, and good night texts. i want him to understand that after going to school full time, working all day and coming home tired, a hug is definitely all i desire. to know that he cares is of extreme importance. i want to be able to talk to him about my goals, my aspirations, my greatest desires and for him to engage wholeheartedly with me. i want him to listen to me when i rant. to just understand. i want him to fight with me (no ike tho) lol. i want him to know how important art is to me and to participate willingly. i don't ask for much but enough room to spread my wings. i want that type of love shihan spoke of when he performed "this type love." i want that, "me thinking of him thinking of me" type love. i NEED him to engross in intellectual conversation with me. most importantly i need him to LOVE God - i mean fear the Lord; to be afraid of nothing but God and God alone and understand that God is number one before all. i could go one forever but i'll stop but i still have some sort of makeshift fairytale fantasy.